Rasa~

Apa perasaan kau kalau orang yg paling kau sayang benci kau? Apa perasaan kau kalau orang yg paling kau sayang layan kau mcm tak patut, tapi bile layan orang lain sebaik-baiknya. Apa perasaan kau kalau orang yg paling kau sayang tgh susah, tapi kau tak boleh nk tolong. Apa perasaan kau kalau orang yg paling kau sayang pilih kau sebagai orang yg terakhir yg dia akan pilih untuk membuat pasangan hidup?

Percayalah ckp aku.. Rasa mcm kau dah tak guna hidup.. Rasa mcm bangkai burung lagi berharga drpd nilai nyawa kau.. Rasa mcm tiba-tiba semua organ dalaman kau yg dah tak berfungsi.. Rasa mcm kau nk jatuh dan tak nak bangun semula.. Rasa seperti Separuh hati kau dah mati.. Rasa sehina-hinanya.. Rasa sesedih-sedihnya..

Aku tak malu mengaku ..

I know that I dissapoint you. Sampai kau tak tahan. Sampai kau hilang sabar. Kau ingat aku nk buat kau mcm tu? Especially at the person that I most love in the world. Aku tak pernah ada niat walaupun sedetik. Bila aku fikir2 balik semua bnde. Tak kira apa pun yg aku buat. Mesti aku akan buat kau sakit.. Ya Allah .. Somenites aku susah nk tidur sbb fikirkan apa yg aku dah buat kat kau. Aku betul2 impressed dgn kesabaran kau dgn kebodohan aku. Kalau ada sesiapa nk tawu apa bnde bodoh tu. Dtg jumpa aku personally .. By now, aku betul-betul rasa bodoh, bersalah, bengap, kejam, rugi, sbb tak dapat nk sedar betapa pentingnya kau dalam hidup aku. And now, kau dah tawar kan hati dgn aku .. It's to late. Kalau aku mintak tolong artist fav kau nk tolong aku pon kau tak akan maafkan aku.. Bila aku ingat balik masa silam aku. Aku betul2 tak matang, bodoh, errogant, ignorant, semua word yg mksudnya buruk lah. Tgk kau sekarang. Kesian aku tgk kau .. Aku betul2 rasa bersalah. If my death would make the world better for you, I would rather stab myself with a knife just so that you would have the life that you wanted .. :'l

Aku sedar :l

Aku tawu kau kaya. Aku tawu kau kacak. Aku tawu kau putih. Aku tawu kau pandai berkata-kata. Aku tawu kau bergaya. Aku tawu kau pndai main bola. Aku tawu kau ada pelbagai pakaian. Aku tawu kau ada phone mahal. Aku tawu badan kau fit. Aku tawu kau ada 6-pack. Aku tawu kau tweet famous. Aku tawu kau popular. Aku tawu kau ada motor. Aku tawu kau perfect. Aku tawu kau ada segala-galanya.
Siapalah aku berbanding dgn kau ..

that xx

Walking on the streets,
I bumped into your man (Yeah I saw him)
I didn't want to believe it,
but my hunch turned out right (I told you)

He's not wearing that ring you gave him,
there's another girl by his side,
But I've said enough (I don't wanna hurt you)
Now you're getting angry with me (why?)

You say "he's definitely not that kind of person(sure you're right),
Seeing you eyes,
I reply that I probably got it wrong,
See, I lied for you (I'm sorry)

I hate that you don't understand me,
I hate all this waiting
Let go of his hand (break it off with him)
When you're sad, I feel like I'm dying,

That xx, What does he have that I don't,
Why can't I have you,
That xx doesn't love you,
How much longer are you going to cry yourself silly?

When you speak of him, you look so happy (you look happy),
It's good that you can be this happy (I'm happy),
You say you really love him, want to be with him forever,
You trust him completely (I don't know what to say no more),

Your friend all know that guy (yup they know),
It's so obvious, why can't you see (It's you),
They say love is blind, Oh baby you so blind,
Please I beg you, Break it off,

I hate that you don't understand me,
I hate all this waiting,
Let go of his hand (break it off with him)
When you're sad, I feel like I'm dying,

That xx, What does he have that I don't,
Why can't I have you,
That xx doesn't love you,
How much longer are you going to cry yourself silly?

Expensive cars, Beatiful clothes,
High class restaurant, they all suit you well
But that xx beside you, He doesn't suit you,
he really doesn't.

he smiles like a hypocrite with you,
Brushing your face and hair,
But he's thinking of another woman for sure,
How dare him.

The amount of tears you've cried, I want to make you happy,
By the same amount, baby
Rather than going through the pain alone,
Share some with me, baby

Please look at me, why can't you
realise that I am your love,
Why are you the only
One who doesn't know.

That xx, What does he have that I don't,
Why can't I have you,
That xx doesn't love you,
How much longer are you going to cry yourself silly?

That xx, What does he have that I don't,
Why can't I have you,
That xx doesn't love you,
How much longer are you going to cry yourself silly?

Translated by:
Eday Mangat....
(Hayati lagu ni baik-baik.
Lirik lagu ni bermakna untuk saya.)

Think

I understand. Everybody gotta make a dicision. But when you've given a choice. Why did you choose to make a decision that would hurt me. Of all person, why hurt me? There always a way to make everyone happy. The only thing you could do is just wait and hope for the best. And look what you have done. You've upset the universe, world, ecosystem, country, and most important 'me'. A wise man once said. In a relationship. Never-ever say 'it's over' because until you say that sentence. Everything gonna be just fine. But if it's to late. Thrust me. More that one heart would be broken. Think of it this way. Do you you think hurting me is the 'best' for me?

Dicisions -__-"

We are not alone in this world,
There's people around us,
So when we make a dicision,
Someone will get hurt,
Physically or even mentally.

I Asked :D

I asked God for a flower, he gave me a bouquet
I asked God for a minute, he gave me a day
I asked God for true love, he gave me that too
I asked for an angel and he gave me you.

Perfect You ♥

All I ever wanted was to be part of your heart,
And for us to be together, to never be apart.

No one else in the world can even compare,
You're perfect and so is this love that we share.

We have so much more than I ever thought we would,
I love you more than I ever thought I could.

I promise to give you all I have to give,
I'll do anything for you as long as I live.

In your eyes I see our present, our future and past,
By the way you look at me I know we will last.

I hope that one day you'll come to realize,
How perfect you are when seen through my eyes.

My Love

My love is like an ocean
It goes down so deep
My love is like a rose
Whose beauty you want to keep.

My love is like a river
That will never end
My love is like a dove
With a beautiful message to send.

My love is like a song
That goes on and on forever
My love is like a prisoner
It's to you that I surrender.

love

Love is like a lump of gold,
Hard to get, and hard to hold.
Of all the girls I've ever met,
You're the one I can't forget.
I do believe that God above,
Created you for me to love.
He chose you from all the rest,
Because he knew I would love you best.

I Will Love You Forever

I love you so deeply,
I love you so much,
I love the sound of your voice
And the way that we touch.
I love your warm smile
And your kind, thoughtful way,
The joy that you bring
To my life every day.
I love you today
As I have from the start,
And I'll love you forever
With all of my heart.

Stranger ♥

A stranger you were once.
Then, with a gentle look you took my hand.
As our lives engaged,
you lit my life and I held both your hands.
Now that decades have passed,
ours souls have indeed become one.
How fortunate we are
that we have found the love so true
that everyone dreams about.

Haishh T.T

I still can't believe that after all we've been through together. You didn't even have any feelings towards me :O I'm wondering?? Are all the things you say to me were all 'FAKE'? Knowing all this just makes my heart hurt more. I just want you to know this. All my feelings towards you are true and always will be. Just wish that you could just know how deep this feelings are for you :'/

I'm new here :P

I started this blog is to relieve my stress. I don't give a 'DAMN' what you think about me (ayat org). I think it's better jika saya mula dgn memperkenalkan diri saya. Here's my biodata:

Muhammad Hidhir Bin Abdul Aziz~
15 Tahun~
24 August 1997~
SMK.Taman Pelangi Indah~
Hospital Sultanah Aminah, Johor Bahru~
No 46, Jalan keris 26, Taman Puteri Wangsa, Johor Bahru, Johor, 81800~
Love Outdoor sports~
That most of my 'Biodata'.Think you know me? Than I suggest you think again.