Rasa~

Apa perasaan kau kalau orang yg paling kau sayang benci kau? Apa perasaan kau kalau orang yg paling kau sayang layan kau mcm tak patut, tapi bile layan orang lain sebaik-baiknya. Apa perasaan kau kalau orang yg paling kau sayang tgh susah, tapi kau tak boleh nk tolong. Apa perasaan kau kalau orang yg paling kau sayang pilih kau sebagai orang yg terakhir yg dia akan pilih untuk membuat pasangan hidup?

Percayalah ckp aku.. Rasa mcm kau dah tak guna hidup.. Rasa mcm bangkai burung lagi berharga drpd nilai nyawa kau.. Rasa mcm tiba-tiba semua organ dalaman kau yg dah tak berfungsi.. Rasa mcm kau nk jatuh dan tak nak bangun semula.. Rasa seperti Separuh hati kau dah mati.. Rasa sehina-hinanya.. Rasa sesedih-sedihnya..

Aku tak malu mengaku ..

I know that I dissapoint you. Sampai kau tak tahan. Sampai kau hilang sabar. Kau ingat aku nk buat kau mcm tu? Especially at the person that I most love in the world. Aku tak pernah ada niat walaupun sedetik. Bila aku fikir2 balik semua bnde. Tak kira apa pun yg aku buat. Mesti aku akan buat kau sakit.. Ya Allah .. Somenites aku susah nk tidur sbb fikirkan apa yg aku dah buat kat kau. Aku betul2 impressed dgn kesabaran kau dgn kebodohan aku. Kalau ada sesiapa nk tawu apa bnde bodoh tu. Dtg jumpa aku personally .. By now, aku betul-betul rasa bodoh, bersalah, bengap, kejam, rugi, sbb tak dapat nk sedar betapa pentingnya kau dalam hidup aku. And now, kau dah tawar kan hati dgn aku .. It's to late. Kalau aku mintak tolong artist fav kau nk tolong aku pon kau tak akan maafkan aku.. Bila aku ingat balik masa silam aku. Aku betul2 tak matang, bodoh, errogant, ignorant, semua word yg mksudnya buruk lah. Tgk kau sekarang. Kesian aku tgk kau .. Aku betul2 rasa bersalah. If my death would make the world better for you, I would rather stab myself with a knife just so that you would have the life that you wanted .. :'l

Aku sedar :l

Aku tawu kau kaya. Aku tawu kau kacak. Aku tawu kau putih. Aku tawu kau pandai berkata-kata. Aku tawu kau bergaya. Aku tawu kau pndai main bola. Aku tawu kau ada pelbagai pakaian. Aku tawu kau ada phone mahal. Aku tawu badan kau fit. Aku tawu kau ada 6-pack. Aku tawu kau tweet famous. Aku tawu kau popular. Aku tawu kau ada motor. Aku tawu kau perfect. Aku tawu kau ada segala-galanya.
Siapalah aku berbanding dgn kau ..

that xx

Walking on the streets,
I bumped into your man (Yeah I saw him)
I didn't want to believe it,
but my hunch turned out right (I told you)

He's not wearing that ring you gave him,
there's another girl by his side,
But I've said enough (I don't wanna hurt you)
Now you're getting angry with me (why?)

You say "he's definitely not that kind of person(sure you're right),
Seeing you eyes,
I reply that I probably got it wrong,
See, I lied for you (I'm sorry)

I hate that you don't understand me,
I hate all this waiting
Let go of his hand (break it off with him)
When you're sad, I feel like I'm dying,

That xx, What does he have that I don't,
Why can't I have you,
That xx doesn't love you,
How much longer are you going to cry yourself silly?

When you speak of him, you look so happy (you look happy),
It's good that you can be this happy (I'm happy),
You say you really love him, want to be with him forever,
You trust him completely (I don't know what to say no more),

Your friend all know that guy (yup they know),
It's so obvious, why can't you see (It's you),
They say love is blind, Oh baby you so blind,
Please I beg you, Break it off,

I hate that you don't understand me,
I hate all this waiting,
Let go of his hand (break it off with him)
When you're sad, I feel like I'm dying,

That xx, What does he have that I don't,
Why can't I have you,
That xx doesn't love you,
How much longer are you going to cry yourself silly?

Expensive cars, Beatiful clothes,
High class restaurant, they all suit you well
But that xx beside you, He doesn't suit you,
he really doesn't.

he smiles like a hypocrite with you,
Brushing your face and hair,
But he's thinking of another woman for sure,
How dare him.

The amount of tears you've cried, I want to make you happy,
By the same amount, baby
Rather than going through the pain alone,
Share some with me, baby

Please look at me, why can't you
realise that I am your love,
Why are you the only
One who doesn't know.

That xx, What does he have that I don't,
Why can't I have you,
That xx doesn't love you,
How much longer are you going to cry yourself silly?

That xx, What does he have that I don't,
Why can't I have you,
That xx doesn't love you,
How much longer are you going to cry yourself silly?

Translated by:
Eday Mangat....
(Hayati lagu ni baik-baik.
Lirik lagu ni bermakna untuk saya.)

Think

I understand. Everybody gotta make a dicision. But when you've given a choice. Why did you choose to make a decision that would hurt me. Of all person, why hurt me? There always a way to make everyone happy. The only thing you could do is just wait and hope for the best. And look what you have done. You've upset the universe, world, ecosystem, country, and most important 'me'. A wise man once said. In a relationship. Never-ever say 'it's over' because until you say that sentence. Everything gonna be just fine. But if it's to late. Thrust me. More that one heart would be broken. Think of it this way. Do you you think hurting me is the 'best' for me?

Dicisions -__-"

We are not alone in this world,
There's people around us,
So when we make a dicision,
Someone will get hurt,
Physically or even mentally.

I Asked :D

I asked God for a flower, he gave me a bouquet
I asked God for a minute, he gave me a day
I asked God for true love, he gave me that too
I asked for an angel and he gave me you.